There is a certain pleasure to just dancing the night away. With nothing on your mind except for the beat of the music pumping through you. How you can feel the bass rumble through the floor and travel through your body. You swing your hips back and forth and the lights flash across your eyes and that is all that matters. It is such a release to simply ignore all of the stress of life and allow the music to be the only thing on your mind. It is always nice to escape, even if it for just a few hours on a Saturday night.

There has never been a time that I have felt completely and totally relaxed and at peace in any relationship in my life, until now. I will never be more thankful for the love I have received from this one person. I owe her everything, my freedom, my confidence, my faith in myself, absolutely everything, is because of her.

Not going to be easy days to remember if they vanish into the oblivion of my mind before I record what occured.

It is sometimes difficult to allow yourself to trust someone when your trust has been abused in the past. Even if you have no reason to doubt this person, this new part of your life, you still find yourself wondering what they will do to hurt you. What they will do to use you for their own gain, with no thought towards your emotions. But I have often wondered if a lack of trust in others is simply a lack of trust in myself. Do I question other people's motives, when I really should be taking a look at myself, and at my own motives?

Everyday Use

It isn't everyday that you can honestly say you are completely content with who you are and know exactly what you stand for. But today, was one of those days. A day when I realized how proud I am to be me and knowing that no matter how many or how few the number of people is that support me, the important thing is that I can live with myself. AND I CAN TAKE PRIDE IN MYSELF. I am confident in who I am and I love the person I have developed into over time.
It was the simple act of pumping my legs to make a swing soar into the sky that allowed me to release my fears of what other people will think of me. Because no matter how much other people may doubt me they will never be able to make me regret who I am.